After a few months of glowing stories about Mark, a friend of mine asked me, “Seriously, Erin, did your husband ever do anything annoying?” I laughed. Of course he did. And so do I. Our relationship was far from perfect and I do not pretend that it was. We worked hard at it. Sometimes he made me crazy and I am certain there were so many times that I made him want to pull his hair out. One of his students said that she was the reason for a lot of his gray hairs…but I am pretty sure I was the cause of most of those.
I bought this little dish for Mark for our 10th anniversary and I never got to give it to him. I found it randomly a few months before our anniversary and it practically jumped off the shelf at me. I think it cost under $10 but the sentiment has special meaning to me because these were words that I said to him when we said our vows on Playa Paraiso in Mexico. The funny thing is, this gift came with a tiny ulterior motive. I thought it would be a nice place for him to place his wedding ring and first anniversary bracelet which he normally took off everyday after work and left on the kitchen counter. Maybe if he had a place for them, he wouldn’t leave them laying around in the kitchen. 😉
To say I miss Mark is the understatement of the century. I miss everything about him. Even the tiny little things that might have made me crazy once in a while. At times, my mind is still having trouble wrapping itself around the fact that he is gone. I think a part of me will always still be waiting for him…Maybe one day we’ll find the place where we can be together again. Until then, I will be missing him and the way his heart understood me and simply made me feel right at home.