I still have Mark’s phone number in my phone. It’s at the top of my favorites list with his picture right next to it. My heart skips a beat every single time I see it there when I call someone else from that list, but I can’t bring myself to delete it. Having it there reminds me that he was the one person I always wanted to call when anything happened… good, bad, funny, sad, stressful, gossipy, or otherwise. He is still the one and only person that I want to share everything with…I imagine that feeling won’t ever fully go away. I realize now how lucky we were to have something so special that has made saying goodbye so difficult…but I miss my best friend.